So, one thing I’ve really learned to prioritize throughout this pregnancy is myself! I realized how much I gave away to activities, events, people, habits, etc. that were not building me.
I’ve always preferred my alone time but the reality that I will be forever responsible of a little life has taught me that I must learn to prioritize. A large part of that requires doing the things that maintain my peace and sanity. If I’m not well, how could I ensure that somebody, a baby, is well?
I embrace my inner desires, not the ones that look cool or sound good. I’m doing what my heart is pulled towards. And I’m taking things slowly! God leads my life but He’s also chosen me to lead the gifts and resources He blessed me with. Ultimately, my purpose is to live today fully and to do the things that make me more like the divine creature I was designed to be. Our life was created to show the glory of God.
I’m not sure if I would have realized this without being in such a sticky situation. It’s easy to say, “I know I have a purpose” but it’s a lot harder to believe that. Choosing to do the things I am ‘called’ to do really makes life seem slow. BUT, forget the fact that I’m not more advanced in my career. I’m tired of rushing! There is no fast way to discover your purpose.
I used to be anxious because I’m unemployed and knew that I would wait until after the birth to find a use for my degree. After finishing school, I had nothing to look forward to. Nothing to do. And it made my chest tight, but that was an opportunity to learn!
Each day is a day to learn! So, I use my time to do that. To read. To observe the outside world. To play with my dog. To learn new recipes. To learn how to draw. To learn how to take care of my home. To learn God’s word. To take what I can and make it meaningful.
I’m respecting the slow progress because I want my daughter to be raised by a peaceful and intentional mother, not a stressed and confused one.
I’m a learner today because I want to be a leader tomorrow.
(I want to teach 😉)
Currently reading: She’s Still There by Chrystal Evans Hurst