I feel things shifting in my life and it’s clearly time for change. I lamented about my boredom and exhaustion with my writing.
And today, I feel recharged. Not to write anything particular, haha. I’m recharged because God has been giving me important dreams lately. Last night I received one that has instructed me to do just one thing today.
And then this morning, I received a great message from Charles Stanley’s podcast. We can’t let things or people become so much the object of our desire that we forget to chase God. I can say that I’ve been desiring a lot of things before checking in with God, including answers about popularizing my blog. Refreshing myself on this day means to go after Him. To clear myself of my own expectations for life and just thirst for God’s presence. To reignite the flame of my love for Him.
That dead flame is the root of my lethargy.
Like I said, I’ve been feeling like I have to do something different in regards to my pursuits, hobbies, relationships. All of those things make up my lifestyle questions. But because I wasn’t consulting with the Big Man Upstairs, I was stuck in my little dingy basement.
I can’t unlock myself from the inside out, but that’s okay because God has the keys.
Praying and expressing all of this to the Lord has brought me peace. God’s presence is here with me and I’m reminded to let Jesus take the wheel :-). He’s within me, so that means I get to be the host for Him. When the wheel needs to turn, He’ll do it through my hands. I won’t be doing it.
That’s kind of scary, isn’t it? I think it’s cool, and I think it’s part of fearing the Lord. Being a little bit scared because you know you’re going to do something greater than yourself. Especially how you don’t know what that thing is!
Because I’ll be honest and say I’m still not sure where I’ll be turning, all I know is that there’s an exit coming up and when it’s time God will lead me onto a new road. As long as I’m keeping Him in front of me (and all my thoughts, words, actions), I can rest assured that I’m doing the right thing.
So let’s not forget to pray and keep God first because that’s when the ugly starts to creep in. And we all said AMEN.
PS maybe the change is just something tiny like readjusting my perspective of God. That’s actually huge!