I spent 14 hours in active labor. I was in what they call "Labor Land." Which means that everything in the real world was blurred by complete immersion into my body. The sensations take over your whole body so there is no ability to recognize and interpret the surrounding environment. And it's true, people will … Continue reading Labor of Love
This year I’m learning not to criticize myself. No more self-punishment. Whatever activity I choose to do (out of my 342 hobbies), I’m doing with love and focus. I’m learning to enjoy each day for what it brings me instead of ruminating on the past or over planning the future. Today brought me a day … Continue reading Beach Days
I must vent... Pregnancy brain, mommy brain, whatever this jello inside my skull is doing, has confused me to no avail.
Under any circumstance, because of my relationship with my body, I believed that I would have a wonderful pregnancy free of pain and yucky symptoms. Yea, I know, wishful thinking. You may find this laughable but I consider my personal "morning sickness" to be a product of spiritual sickness, not biology.
Solitude can be a beautiful thing when exercised with purpose and I found refuge in getting away from my socially toxic ways. However, too much time alone can also be harmful. My alone time transformed into self-punishment. I castigated myself for not being able to change the bad things that happened in my life, such as being fired.
If you know me, like actually know me, you might say that I love to talk. In a big crowd, a stranger might see me and think that I was a quiet wallflower. (Some people might say I appear unfriendly and detached, that's a topic for another day!) To be honest, the combination of the … Continue reading Ushering in My First Blog